Me, today...

It's a tiring day. With all the work and my 3 children. Getting tired and a great headache.

Thinking about the loans that I haven't or I can say I can't afford to pay anymore.

At this moment, I also think about the method I'd like to use for our family planning. Even though he don't approve it, I think I should take something.

Maybe I shouldn't listen to him too much cause in the end it's always me suffering. There are times I don't think I can take it anymore. Too tired and too much to think about.

LAGU UNTUKMU

This is one of my favorite song sing by Meet Uncle Hussain.

Tiada bintang
Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicela
Bagai ku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri
Aku tetap begini takkan berubah kerna

Aku tetap aku dan alur hidup mu bukanlah aku
Guna hati akal dan fikiranku
Berbeza engkau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu
Adakah aku
Hanya boneka yang sering engkau mainkan

Yang dikawal oleh jari jarimu
Ku punya hati dan perasaan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan
Cukup-cukuplah oh cukuplah
Guna hati akal dan fikiranmu
Berbeza engkau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu

Tak tahan tak tahan
Sabarku tak tertahan
Melayan sikapmu perawan

Berbeza berbeza
Kau dan aku berbeza
Kita memang tak serupa

Bebaskan
Ku ingin dilepaskan
Kita tidak sehaluan

Cukuplah sudahlah
Sampai disini sahaja
Hubungan kita berdua

Tentang Wanita(Kajian Tajul Muluk)

I've tried this quiz in facebook.com and it came out like below:

Ili telah menggunakan Tentang Wanita(Kajian Tajul Muluk)!
Keputusannya adalah seperti berikut :

Anda dilahirkan pada 15 Mei 1981, Jumaat.

Wanita yang lahir pada hari ini tabiatnya berani menentang suami. Bangga diri, suka berbelanja, suka dipuji, suka bergaul dan suka melakukan perkara yang berbahaya dan sia-sia. Bersemangat waja, pandai simpan rahsia, tidak suka mengaku kesalahan sendiri.

Dalam soal kewangan, bersikap boros dan tidak pandai menyimpan harta demi masa depan. Cintanya sejati dan tidak mudah berubah, cuma kadangkala tidak telus. Seksualnya sangat istimewa, menyeronokkan, penuh kelembutan tetapi tidak suka dipaksa.

I wonder if it's TRUE...???

Gained 2.5 kg.

I gain 2.5 kg today. The nurse suspect I have diabetic problem. Do make the sugar blood test the next following day. I hope nothing bad is going to happen again.

5th Month of Pregnancy

I gained 1.5 kg this time and I hope that I will keep on gaining it. It is not a good thing if I lose weight at this moment. The nurse will make noise and make me more tension.

Hope everything will be fine.

The Road Of Life

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Me Today ...

It' sucks... Haha... Tired, bored, heartache, pregnant and all I got was only more and more and more trouble. Nothing else than that.

All this people is driving me crazy. I don't understand why some people can't talk even to ask for permission from others. It hurts a lot when we heard a lot of bad things happen while we're not there. I wonder why? But they can talk, laugh and discuss anything with others especially their family friends for example. Especially with new in-laws-to-be family. Haha... Maybe that is how they do things. This is the 2nd time things like this happen and it really makes me sooooo mad and sick of it.

Everything is mixed up like a big dough... Hoho...

Hope all this thingy will end asss sssoooonnnnn aassss posssiiiibbbleeeeee... Really hate this feeling.

Nasi Ayam (Express)

Nasi

600 ml Air
2 ketul Kiub Ayam (Knorr/Maggi)
500 gram Beras
2 camca besar Margerin/mentega

Bahan A:

2 ulas Bawang Putih, dicincang halus
5 cm Halia, dicincang halus
1 helai Daun pandan


Cara-caranya:
1. Dalam periuk nasi, panaskan margerin dan tumiskan bahan A hingga wangi.
2. Masukkan beras yang telah siap dibasuh, air dan kiub ayam.
3. Tanak nasi seperti biasa.

Kuah Cili

5 batang cili merah
1 biji limau kasturi
1 biji bawang
gula
garam

Thinking about myself today...

I am quite disappointed with my current job right now. Been working for 6 years with only 1 time team building training. It's very frustrating. No training, no OT and no other allowance. Only medical benefits but not included with dental clinic.

For a diploma holder to work at this position, it's quite frustrating. Still, looking for a new job is my only option at this moment. But what kind of jobs can I do? Working as a some sort of clerk cum receptionist cum customer service cum cleaner, I don't get the skills I think I need for a better career change. Looks like my Computer Science (IT) diploma is nothing for today's jobs. Forgot most of the things I learn while doing my diploma years ago.

And now, I am a mother of 2 and coming soon the 3rd child. I thought it's late to look for a great jobs experience. But, I do hope I will get the chance to switch my career sooner or later.

Today, I'm doing everything I can for my children s' future. It's hard and I still keep moving forward.

Today...

It's been quite a long time since I last type something here. It's been the most difficult time I'm going through at this moment. I feel so hopeless and I can't even predict what will my future look like.

I am 4 month+ pregnant now and the due date might be on 09-09-2009. Can feel the baby is kicking now. It was an unexpected pregnancy. Still, I can't resist it. The morning sickness already gone away. Only have problem with my weight only. Last checkup my weight dropped 0.5kg from 64.5kg.

Whatever it is I hope it'll get better soon.

Cari hatimu...

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

Toothache....

I went to the dentist again today. It seems the pain is killing me. Can't event sleep at night. Today is the 3rd time there.

At last, I'm losing a tooth. So sad. Can't do anything about it since the doctor only give me 2 options. Eat the painkiller (paracetamol) or get rid of the bad tooth. I've been eating the paracetamol for more than 1 week now. I don't think it's good for my baby. So, I chose to get rid of the tooth.

Event after get rid of the tooth I am still in pain. Tension... Can't stand the pain anymore.

Moksu's Chocolate Cake Recipe

1 cup cocoa
1 cup sugar
1 cup condense milk
1 cup cooking oil
1 cup hot boiled water
2 cup flour
4 eggs
3 caps of essence vanilla
1 teaspoon bicarbonate
1 teaspoon baking powder

1. Add cocoa & sugar into the hot boiled water. Stir until it mix well.
2. Then, add all the other ingredients and mix it.
3. Steam it for 45 minutes.

2nd Pregnancy Checkup

I when to Klinik Desa Kempas today for my monthly pregnancy's checkup. Everything is quite ok for the time being. My weight dropped to 64 kg from 65 kg. The red blood is 13.4. Only not sure of the due date yet.

The doctor gave me an appointment on the 5th March for scanning. It's to determine the due date.

A Trip to KL during CNY holiday...

Last Saturday, we went to Keramat AU2 to meet with my MIL. Actually, we went there to take my MIL back to Simpang Renggam after the 'hantar tanda' thingy. In the end, we end up following them to the 'majlis hantar tanda' which was held on 25th Jan 2009.

After the event, we went to Cheras to see my darling's Mak Itam.

On the 26th, Pak Itam took us to Sungai Gabai Waterfall. Amir really like it. He always ask us to take him to 'mandi laut'. Hehe... I just sit there and watched them 'mandi' waterfall.

A lot of things I would like to do while I'm in KL. But all the plans I had in mind was ruined. Hmmm...

I am pregnant??

Umh... I missed 1 menstrual and I've done the urine test 3-4 times to make sure that I'm not pregnant again.

Last few weeks I was ill and I went to see a doctor. My darling told the doctor about my menstrual problem. I do another urine test that cost me RM30. It's too expensive to me. Still my darling wants me to do it and the results did shocked me. It's positive and I can't remember my last menstrual date. Need to do a scan to determine the due date.

At this moment, I still keep it secret from Mama and Abah. I just don't know how to answer them if they ask a tricky questions like my study?? Hmm... I think, I'll just let it be.

Anyway, I'll just keep on moving forward.

Moksu's Chocolate Cake

I baked a chocolate cake recently using Moksu's recipe. Hehe... It turned out ok to me. At least, it could eased my craved for a cake.

My Darling like it fresh from the oven. My children like it both.

Maybe I'll snap a pic of the cake if I bake it again. Later, I'll post the recipe on the blog.